In the heartbreak

What do you do when you don't get to say goodbye like you thought you would, when things don't end all neat and pretty like you planned, when you're left sobbing your heart out in your car in a parking lot late at night, because it's the end and you never knew it was going … Continue reading In the heartbreak

Tracing the handiwork

When I sat on the first flight home from the Netherlands, I had 8+ hours to think about what (and who) I was leaving behind and what (and who) I was going home to. It was hard. I came home and immediately had to spring into action getting ready for school and going back to … Continue reading Tracing the handiwork

Are you ready?

It's cool outside with a somewhat eerie whistling wind. Gas stations have their prices zeroed out signifying no more fuel. Store shelves are emptier than the church parking lot at midnight. It's pandemonium during the day, then a silence descends at night. Everything echoes: "The storm is coming." *     *     * … Continue reading Are you ready?

Coming home

Coming home. At the end of a vacation or trip away to camp, you're supposed to feel satisfied, like you had a wonderful time but are ready to come home. Coming home is supposed to feel like bringing your heart back to where it belongs. It's supposed to be the comforting return to normal life, … Continue reading Coming home

At the edge of eternity

This past week in the Netherlands I was a guest member of the teen Bible camp run by the missionaries. It was a mentally and physically tiring week, but it was so worth it to get to be with these incredible teens and staff members. Thursday night we ended with a campfire song and testimony … Continue reading At the edge of eternity

More real to me

One of the most pressing questions we often have about things in life is Is it real? When we are scared, we want to know if the threat is real. When we are presented with a new idea or a crazy sounding story, we demand to see the evidence before we will believe it is real. When … Continue reading More real to me

As he leads me

Life is busy, always so busy, that it seems if I want a moment to be still, I have to make one. I must hew my quietness, my solitude, out of the whirlwind of life. Sometimes this threatens my ability to function well, as it is so difficult to find the moments I need to … Continue reading As he leads me

When you cannot see

"Trust the God you cannot see to faithfully accomplish what only He can see." -- Andy Gleiser Sometimes, this life just doesn't seem to make much sense, does it? When we're in the middle of the muck, we can't see anything except all the mire that surrounds us. We have no perspective save that which looks … Continue reading When you cannot see

Intentional rest

A lot's been going on in my life as of late. (Since that last post, I've become a shift leader at Chick-fil-A as well...as you can probably imagine, this adds a fair amount of craziness.) But is that really anything new? Often there's so much going on that I forget all about resting. Or at least, … Continue reading Intentional rest

The close of a season

For the past year and two months, I have been fighting my way through college mess and college stress. Trying to get a head start on a degree, I quickly realized I had no idea what that degree would be... Cue a year-long journey to discover who I am and who I want to be … Continue reading The close of a season